I’m so tired of being alone, so tired of being on my own (Al Green). My life needs some more jazz. I feel as though, however content I may be with the recent changes in my life – primarily transferring to Uni in North Carolina – there is a sensation of something missing. I am simultaneously satisfied and dissatisfied. I need a job, for one, and I still am yearning more friendships and an upbeat social life. I hate going out alone, because more often that not, I end the night alone as well. This is not to say I need to get laid every night, but I wouldn’t mind hanging out with some female company. Granted staying the night with Nicole is nice and all, and I need to ask her out formally, I desire a more developed social circle, which would obviously include friends of both sexes and varied interests.
I feel that beginning school midway through the year puts me at a disadvantage here since not everybody is looking for new friends and clubs have already been formed. I hope I will meet a lot of people at whatever job I may land, and from there several new friendships will spring up. Until then, I will attempt to put myself out here more than usual, and make a conscious effort to meet people and introduce myself to new faces and so forth and so on.
I do wish I could see Sirius soon, but that does not seem very likely. If only he could come down on his Spring Break – that would be nice. I do not want to drive all the way to Jersey if I can help it, but I will have to sat some point; most likely this May in the summertime.
More or less, I just need stuff to do. Hanging out at Java Dog is all well and good until a couple of hours go by and the day is still in its infancy. I can only watch so many films in a week anyway and I do not want to day drink on a Tuesday or anything like that – especially by my lonesome. I need to find a hookup for some quality, fairly priced herb to kill some time and jam out to music and write verses or something. That would be cool. Other than that, I need to meet up with other humans for social activities. Basketball is fun, but again it is not an all day event and seems to be a hit or miss thing, especially when playing outdoors in a park somewhere. When it is 60 plus and sunny I want to ball outside, so I may have to just shoot around, but at least I am in the sun and having some fun. I am tired of being cooped up indoors, granted the college has great facilities, I prefer breathing in fresh air at any rate.
I think as far as the job situation goes, landing the dog care position should work out, but if not, forming an odd jobs business would be ideal. That way I could totally control my hours, and get paid tax free cash or personal check until I can find a real job or build that up to nearly full time. I am more than willing to do house sitting, child and/or pet care, landscaping, handyman type of work, furniture moving or assembly and things of that nature. That could really turn profits if I market myself intelligently but that would most likely be primarily word of mouth. Again, making things hard for a newcomer to the area.